Defences

I was always told,
"Pull yourself together!"
"Stop punishing yourself!"
"You're being hysterical!"
"Stop it! It's boring!"
I am very grateful for this
Seeing me depressed and tearful was a shock
Because it disturbed my otherwise sunny disposition
"You're expanding!" she said
But then wonders why I don't always want to talk to her
When I am vulnerable
I have learnt to see myself as a wonderful person
Instead a messy puddle of body issues and chocolate wrappers
She used to tell me that I needed to develop a thicker skin
But now I have calloused hands
He lies in the mud watching bullets fly over his nose,
In mid-air
Saying "If I lie down, I won't get hurt"
Please,
Never lie down in the mud
Don't let the eroding, murky water and hungry larvae drag you into an early purgatory,
Because if you can bend like Neo
And jump like Trinity then the men in suits and black, minimal shades won't bug you.